Falling isn't the part that hurts.

"Falling's not the problem, when I'm falling I'm at Peace. Suddenly when I hit the ground it causes the new grief. . . This is a song for a scribbled out name and my love keeps writing it again and again." -Falling

"I know everything you don't want me too, You think your dreams are the same as mine. I don't love you, but I always will. I wish i could hold you. The less I give the more I get back. Your Hands can heal. Your hands can bruise." -Poison and Wine

" I remember tears down your face when I said I would never let you go. But all that is dead and gone and past tonight. Just close your eyes the sun is going down. You'll be alright. No one can hurt you now. Come morning light you and I will be safe and sound." -safe and sound

"Kiss that girl and I will shrink up and you will never touch my hand. You are having such a nice time with that girl I really don't like but i know your eyes are just for me." - kiss that girl

"Time stand stills. She's the one who's always and never alone. Did she let him go or did the four winds blow him away? Does she even know she the girl with the red balloon? So lovely. So lonely. Floating away. . . did she let him go?" -the girl with the red balloon

These are some of my new favorite songs. LOOK THEM UP. They are beautiful and full of depth and meaning.

MEMORIES OF SUMMER:

so. Last night I stayed up to four look at the stars with two of my best friends. It feels like summer. Everything about last night and this morning felt like a shadow and memory of summer. When I woke up this morning I got in my hot tub and memories of Johnny just flash and sink in. Things that I pushed out of my mind for these last four months. I remembered the night I had a huge party and at one point I stole him away for everyone and we went to our bench and talked about everything. He told me he'd love me forever. Then when we stood up to go back and be with everyone, he pulled me in and kissed me. Today, It was like I could see us there. Like, I was a stranger watching this moment. I never talk to him anymore. At the end of this last summer, we broke up, it was just time and I was moving away... it broke my heart. It was the sweetest break up. Kissed me and told me how hard it was going to be to let me go and we still loved each other at that time. But not anymore. He moved on pretty fast. . . and I'm healing. I also enjoy being single. I am refinding myself.

Finding the beauty in the life I am living. No matter what happens and I want the sky and the light.

So. As I said in my first post my favorite flower is a sunflower. I learned something cool about them. The head of the sunflower will always face the sun. So in a way they are always looking to the light. Thought that was cool.

UpDate: MY NEPHEW IS COMING HOME!!! He goes back in 6 months to finish up the process of the two surgery but he is doing so good! THANK YOU FOR ALL THE PRAYERS.

Christmas in the hospital

It's Christmas Eve. I just got home from the NICU. My sweet 4 day old nephew is sick he has a disease in his intestine and he is in so much pain. He gets to have surgery Tomorrow morning. His First Christmas.

He is so strong. Hasn't cried much. I got to go in and see him with my sister, his mother, and spend some time with him. I sat there and watched my sister stroke his head (he really likes that) and look at him making eye contact with him her eyes filled with tears. The spirit was so strong and sweet. I even cried. The love that filled that room... i will never forget. It made me remember what Christmas is really about and how much our lord loves us, each one of us.

She let me sit with him and stroke his head. I fell in love. I sang to him and he seemed to like that. I also just talked to him and told him how proud i was of him and how strong he is. I felt like he understood what i was saying. He had something special in his eyes and he would look and me and i knew he knew who i was. Then he would make these charming faces that would make me laugh. He melts your heart.

Please pray for him and his Parents.

My sister and brother are so strong. The lord won't give you trials you can't handle. They will be hard and my hurt but if you endure and have hope they will be blessings and make you stronger. I promise.

Merry Christmas. Remember Christ our Savior and love he has for us.

When it Rains

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EMwKxmTLaCs

Look up this video. It is called Men's hearts are failing.

"Heartaches will come. . . be Patients with yourself. Perfection does not come in this life it comes in the next life. Don't demand things that are unreasonable, but demand of yourself improvement. As you let the Lord help you. . . He makes the difference."

This is one thing I have learned as I have lived my life. Do not fear trials. Endure them and look for the beauty in them. They will help you become stronger and a better person. There is always Rain before a Rainbow. So when the rain comes dance in it and look for the rainbow.

Windows to Heaven

When the sky was blue,

My heart was brittle,

Dry to blistered souls

Seeking Drink.

So God hung black clouds low,

Let loose His floods,

And poured forth more

Than I could hold.

I sputtered and choked.

He wrapped a hand around my heart

And wrung out sustenance

For others.

The sky is gray,

But my heart is soft.

In drier days

It would have

Crumbled.

May I Introduce Myself?

Hi. I'm CassidyElise and I believe there is beauty in everything.

I don't really know what to say about myself, but here's a go:

My favorite colors are red and green, but not together.

My favorite flowers are sunflower and lavender.

My favorite food is ginger. . . anything ginger really.

I love to balloon paint, if you don't know what that is watch Princess Diaries.

I believe that Bandaids help everything specially if they are cute.

I love rain, but doesn't everybody?

I believe in true love.

I also believe in heartbreak and that it does happen and it can be healed.

I think everything has a time.

I know I can't spell the best and English is not my forte.

I believe in me, I believe that trials happen for a reason.

I hope I can change someones life.

And I am going to share my story.